Archive for January, 2009

I have been more productive lately than I can remember being in a while, but despite the constant activity over here, I feel … tres blah. On the up side I made amends with my neighbor, apologized for dropping the c-bomb on her, and managed to get all that done before Christmas.

So the holidays were nice. I was surrounded by people I care about, and though there were a few missing pieces of my puzzle, I had a good time. At least, I think I did.

Of course, there are some legitimate reasons that I feel blue… but if I had a set of scales to weigh the positives and the negatives, the scales would be significantly weighed down on the positive side. Still, I’m finding myself unable to focus on the positives lately. Doom & gloomy me.

I’ve been watching friends of mine go through much harder times than me, unable to do anything about any of it. Sometimes however much you want to you just can’t help. I know that “sympathy pains” are sort of part of what’s wrong with me, but I also know that’s not all there is to it.

I’m tired of being sick and tired. I’m unhappy being unhappy all the damn time.